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"Mortality"

(CHORUS)
I think I’ve gotten over
My own mortality.
Feels like there’s no gravity.
Losing my own sanity.
Just another tragedy
Soaring through the Galaxy.
Vision in my fantasy.
But, then, I fall to the earth
Where I don’t know anyone,
But, I’m known by everyone
Runnin’ but it’s overrun,
Wonder if I helped someone
Seeking immortality
Forgetting those old tendencies…

I could die tomorrow,
But it wouldn’t mean nothing…
As long as there’s a reason
That I’m really fighting for something…
I know I’m better than the rest.
And, Imma prove it to someone.
Because, you’re not as dead
if you just contributed something.
So, I contributed something.
But, the thought was just numbing…
The way that Van Gogh died
And thought he amounted to nothing.
All his paintings go for millions
‘Cause in life he was something.
Then he cut off his ear
Just ‘cause his girl didn’t love him.
Ain’t that something?

So, I ask you now,
Do you really ever think what it’s like? or how
to let your emotions overtake your being just to allow
yourself to make a point
and then look back and still have doubts?
Because these mutherfucking posers
Get views for moving his shoulders
To a song that really they don’t even know what it’s about!
I’m just trying to move you…
But, you can stick to your views.
Just let me know when your TikTok
actually gives you some clout.
(Break it down, break it down, break it down, now…)

Just in case you weren’t aware,
I’m not really close with the man in the chair.
When you die, where you gonna go?
I’ll be gone, but I’ll still be here.
Because, I’m gonna show ‘em all what it means,
What we gotta do just to get a few streams.
Keep it cool, we all makin’ nothing,
Only the select few will reach their dreams.
That’s the hard truth…
Or just the way I see it.
Maybe that’ll change.
I’ll just have to see it.
I thought I saw it all…
I guess I didn’t see it.
Banking on that shot for full,
but I can’t wait to sink it!
Maybe I’m not listening to what I’m fuckin preachin!?
I think my mind and my heart have different kinds of demons.
I don’t know myself because I can’t shake this fucking feeling
that my sense of innocence is finally, slowly leaving.
Damn.

(CHORUS)
I think I’ve gotten over
My own mortality.
Feels like there’s no gravity.
Losing my own sanity.
Just another tragedy.
Soaring through the Galaxy,
Vision in my fantasy.
But, then, I fall to the earth
Where I don’t know anyone,
But, I’m known by everyone.
Runnin’ but it’s overrun.
Wonder if I helped someone
Seeking immortality,
Forgetting those old tendencies…

World in my palm
But I’ll never get why I
I couldn’t take it and just spin it just one more time
Feeling low but I ain’t ever been this high!
Wanna tell ‘em but for some reason
I, I, I…I can’t let it out
Can’t let it out, Oh no,
Thought I headed north, but I went south, oh woah.
So far, but I still kinda feel so close!
I’m at the wheel, yea
This is the life I chose…

‘Cause I don’t wanna be trapped inside my own body.
My thoughts are hardly offensive
So, if I did, Imma sorry!
Get over it, sip Bacardi,
Scoot over and join the party!
Don’t worry ‘bout him, he comin’,
He fashionably be tardy.
Shouldn’t hope for the best?
Should we be believing in something?
The same shit that is stress,
Could be contributing something.
So before you’re all dead,
Do be thinking about something…
What in life did you do
To be remembered as someone??
Damn.

(CHORUS)
I think I’ve gotten over
My own mortality.
Feels like there’s no gravity.
Losing my own sanity.
Just another tragedy.
Soaring through the Galaxy,
Vision in my fantasy.
But, then, I fall to the earth
Where I don’t know anyone,
But, I’m known by everyone
Runnin’ but it’s over run.
Wonder if I helped someone
Seeking immortality
Forgetting those old tendencies…



"Rain and Snow"

Summer dreams…
But, everything’s so out of sync.
Autumn breeze…
I’m still not sure what I think.
I don’t know what I am.
But, I know “home” is a concept.
Almost there, 4 am…

leave behind life for the magic.
Leave my whole world behind
Just so I’ll get to know
Why I cried every time
Rain broke down the snow.
I keep my head up
with my eyes on the ground.
Not sure what to plan for
this time around.
Got to the ocean, thought I’d sink but I swam.
‘cause when I looked out the window,
I couldn’t get past that man.

Come with me…
To see the world I’ve never seen.
Show me please…
What it’s like to love when my mind agrees.
Help me find the light in the dark,
and bring me closer to your heart.
‘cause I don’t know if I could do this alone.
Time for love, but that feelings unknown.
She finally called and I picked up my phone…
and she said,

“I’ll leave my whole world behind,
just so you’ll get to know
that the rain what your mind and your love was the snow.
You broke yourself down
and you brought up your hopes.
But, I’ll teach you to love,
I can show you the ropes.
We’ll get over that mountain,
I’ll never let go of your hand.
Next time you look out that window,
you’ll finally get past that man.”

Now, the love songs make sense when I swore they were wrong.
She opened my eyes, taught me how to be strong.
The whole world seems small,
and I feel kinda free…
‘cause that man’s finally gone
when she’s right next to me.



"AVENGER"

Everybody wake up!
Yeah, we all the same.
Everybody dies. I got pretty used to pain.
Bro made one mistake and now he always gonna pay…
I promise homie, your death won’t be in vain.
It’s not the same…
It’s not the same…
It’s not the same…

But, what is talent if it just gon’ be a waste?
Everybody dies, but their spirit ain’t erased.
Two shadows in my room, and the demons that I face.
Got better every day just to get some fucking praise.
But, would you celebrate if you know it’d be the day
your life came to an end?
Would you stop and hesitate?
All the time spent just to try and elevate…
I do it all for you, but I cannot replicate.

I’ll be great for both of us, since you said your farewells.
But, sometimes I feel like I don’t know myself.
I’ll just wait around until I hear the bells…
hear the bells…
hear the bells…
Yeah, I’ll be great, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
Yeah, I’ll be great, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
For both of us. For both of us.
It’s not the same, not the same, not the same…
It’s not the same, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
‘cause you thought I was.
For both of us…

Yeah, you know life’s always changing.
But, you gotta choose love over hatred.
Third day in a row I woke up wasted…
almost forgot how the pain even tasted.

Yeah, I didn’t mean to
sound like I was mad when our first month’s rent due…
I didn’t under stand that I couldn’t even reach you…
It was my fault, I didn’t even see you.
And, now it’s over.
I’m out of comfort.
What is trust? My head’s too clustered.
Closing in on me…I feel so smothered.
I will prove to you I got this.
I’ll be great for you, the world can’t stop it.

But, weighing down on me’s a weight that don’t fit.
I pray to God that you hear all my shit.
But, now I don’t know my way out.
Taking on the world without a big crowd…
Show me what it means to feel needed.
I’ll get back to you once I’ve succeeded.

Yeah, I’ll be great, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
Yeah, I’ll be great, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
For both of us. For both of us.
It’s not the same, not the same, not the same…
It’s not the same, I’ll be great, I’ll be great…
‘cause you thought I was.
For both of us…
(REPEAT twice in OUTRO)



"20 PAGES" PARTS 1&2

(PART 1)
You saved me from starvation.
Haven’t had a real conversation

In so long, my hearts still taken,
gotta find the true location.
3 years I’ve made some changes,
Ripped out the first 20 pages
Back to the handsome stages,
Findin my creative spaces…

No way,
How much time I’m gunna waste?
My whole world’s in my room
And I’m still tellin myself I’m doing okay.
But, the rope starts to fray.
The ideas, they don’t stay.
It’s hard to make your masterpiece when your whole world seem so dim and grey.
But, it’s time for me to step up!
It’s time for me to shut up!
It’s time for me to get off my ass and finally stand up!
It’s time for me to make changes,
Realize the life that I hated.
So I can paint my own picture,
That hasn’t already been painted
I’m out of my state
Tryna get these other motherfuckers to relate
Don’t even equate
Don’t gotta say shit at all
To get these other bitches’ egos to deflate,
That’s how I dictate.
But, I’m so tired of maybes,
Got me out here pulling petals off daisies,
Keep that shit away like Locker of Davies,
The part of me that I still hate.
Everybody wanna be the one who gunna make it big.
And everybody wanna be the one who really talented.
But, I can’t take em serious, cuz losers be delirious,
And everybody thinks they deserve this shit.
Fuck this shit! Ima rock this shit!
“Man, don’t be a rapper, that shit don’t fit!”
“Why he curse in his music?”
‘Cause I changed, and I proved it!
So, get used to my name ‘cause ya boy won’t quit!

You saved me from starvation.
Haven’t had a real conversation
In so long, my hearts still taken.
Gotta find the true location.
3 years I’ve made some changes.
Ripped out the first 20 pages,
Back to the handsome stages
Finding my creative spaces…

(PART 2)

I don’t like you
When your drinkin’.
Imposter trapped
In my thick skin.
But, what am I?
What am I without the first 20 pages?
(The) 20 pages where
I learned how to fly.

Eh…
I don’t know…
I guess I’m tryna make sense of this.
I don’t really know if I’m meant for this.
Too much stress, it’s a hit or miss.
Way too much of doin’ this and that,
Wanna make tracks and the bass is fat.
But, I love the way it hurts when I fall.
Guess you could say I’m a masochist,
an alchemist,
and optimist,
and anything but a narcissist…
Forgot to mention this,
Who the fuck you know who could flow like this?
And still understand every single word of his?
And this shit fun, it is.
But, I know the biz,
And what I gotta do just to make the hits.
But, I won’t say shit…
and that’s the way it is.

Here I am,
doin better now than I ever been.
Don’t wonder how - I’m doin’ me.
Said, ‘fuck the past!’
But, I think about that time in class
I can’t sleep.
Insomniac,
Cutting down trees like a lumberjack,
I smoke weed
‘Cause I built myself a castle,
Just for me to bleed.

Built myself a castle so tall
Just to bleed
From the greed
Everybody knows how I can be.
I’m sorry, that’s not me.
I’ll just stay in these walls…
I’ll just stay in these walls
Coming up short
Won’t count in this sport.

Home court,
Support,
Time to roll and teleport.
Take a break and smoke,
So I can stay in these walls,
I can stay in these walls

(Freestyle)
No lyrics, here we go…
Imma just see how good I can flow.
Maybe it’ll work, maybe it won’t.
But, I’ll try to keep spitting, so I go…
So, I go up and I don’t go down.
So, I go north and I don’t go south.
I keep my head up,
and I look at the ground at the same time.
But, I don’t know what it’s worth, or if I’m really even gunna rhyme.
Damn.
That shit hit!
Because, I wanna be amazing.
And, I know that I won’t be if I finna be lazy.
I sit in my room all day hibernating
Because I’ve seen my dreams and they clear,
and they anything but hazy…
I see crowds…
I hear “Roman.” yelled loud!
I smell joints being passed around to the sound of “Down”, blowing clouds.
When in reality, I’m in my bed face down,
asking, “how the fuck am I still stuck in this basement with no crown?!!”
I’m a king and I know it!
Call me overconfident.
But, when I had a lisp, was self conscious, and I outgrew it!
I just needed one person to believe in me so I’d do it!
Now, here I am off the top of my head…shit, almost feel kinda fluent.
Just another fat white kid who could rap.
But, I swear to god not a single bar was fucking cap!
Because, I’m real as fuck!
And I can write what I see!
But, for some people that’s not the case…
And they can still fly right past me.
I don’t get it!
I do the work!
I put the hours in!
So much time by myself, I start to talk to the television!
Got to know Michael and Dwight real good,
but, nothing I say to you is ever gonna matter.
Because, to you I’m just Thomas the train who could…
To me, I’m Roman.!
Call me the world’s greatest showman!
I’m tired of this shit…Imma show you what I’m made of…
and I’m hopin’…that my lyrics hit you in a way that you notice
that I’ve always been an artist,
and not just a product of Covid!
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